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Wednesday, December 28, 2005
Times of refreshing
The next day after Christmas,
My family together with a bunch of covenantors headed down to Johor.
Though it was a short trip,
It was well spent indeed.
I had 5 games of bowling with many,
and the shioooky Jarkuzzi. (I think I spelt wrongly)
Rui Lin and Kellyn went such a cutie,
we kept talking and laughing non stop.
And there was Gloria too.
She's ever so lighthearted and fun to be with,
Laughing so happily at all my stupidity...haha.
I enjoyed the talk with my mentor,
she's ever so sweet and concern for me.
We swam at the pool,
and teased all those girls that were in their bikinis.
The hotel toilet was horrendous,
a hole was seen at the shower area.
Christmas at Orchard was great. I felt so lifted as I slowly walked down the roads of Orchard Road with my friends and listen to all the beautiful carols. Its definitely pleasing to the ears. And there was this particular performance that made my tears flow. This African woman was at the stage giving her testimony and challenging passer-bys to drink from this river that is ever flowing so that they will never be thirsty again. I think this is what Christmas is all about. We should never forget the real meaning of Christmas.
"But we took Him and we nailed Him to a cross made of wood
And we raised Him high and dropped it to the ground where it stood
The blood that flows to the earth below
Brought forgiveness to the world that has treated Him so"
posted by The voice within @
2:05 AM
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Friday, December 23, 2005
Check this out
I felt so relaxed after my term test. I thought today's paper would complete the whole idea of a well- set term test for this semester because the 1st two papers were doable. Oh sighz, it turned out otherwise. There were a whole lot of calculations for my last paper. It's purely common sense questions but people who know me will know how dumb i can be at formulas and statistics and diagrams and tables...the list goes on. So, throughout the paper, I just created my own formulas and placed the numbers with a +, -, x or / and then ended with an = to solve the stupid culculation questions. Sometimes, in poly, what we need is just a pass cos some modules are simply too horrible. Nonetheless, I must thank God for guiding me through this term test. I remembered how I so wanted to hand in my CSAS paper after checking when I discovered 3 mistakes. During my term test preparation, I felt calm and peaceful. In addition, during this period, I made it a point to do my quiet time before studying, and the times spent with God is indeed beautiful. Oh yes, and thanks to my parents and friends who prayed for me.
I'm glad that at last I'll be having my term break. Still, I'll be busy cos of the many projects and assignments that will be due when school reopens. Shopped at bugis and suntec just now with my dearest friend. Had Pasta Mania for lunch, followed by endorsing myself with some stuffs like clothes. Saw Jiayi, Zhen Hui, Jieying, Aunty Catherine and Terence today and chatted with them for a while. Tomorrow, I'll be going Orchard to see the christmas lightings again. I'm so into the Christmas mood now. I feel that as people get older, they tend to appreciate even the slightest things in life. Even the bad times would seem good at the end of the day because there are values to be learnt from those moments. Life would then be more enrich and meaningful than what the world perceived. So then, how do you define life?
'God is most glorified when we are most satisfied in Him'
posted by The voice within @
7:37 AM
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Saturday, December 17, 2005
Believing in reality as it seems
On the 15th of December, I blogged my 30th post. The content was simply out of the norm. It took me lots of courage to pen it down. 'A whole load of feelings' would exactly be a fine description of the context. Hey, but why did I delete my entry the next morning? I myself can't answer. Perhaps its so hard to even type the simplest thing in the blog because people will know what's happening the minute they read it. That's the danger of it all.
But for now, here it goes...my 30th post. I was very encouraged by what Doctor Ed Pousson preached about. It kept me thinking about how we should cultivate spiritual discipline as it is beneficial to us. Solitude and fasting are effective ways to get closer to the Father. And together with this comes a spirit- filled life. I also learnt that faith in God requires no prove because sometimes we need to live without evidence.
I studied quite abit just now. Somehow I just can't concentrate. =( Oh Lord, fill me with your everlasting love.
I have been reading Boy meets Girl. I'm beginning to appreciate the beauty of making rightful decisions. Oh, Hey, God is a God of Romance. The first few chapters have already changed my perspective about relationship. I used to think that God is a boring God. How can He be a God of Romance? Now I know...God is a one cool God. God has a plan for every single individuals, and I guessed that the bottomline to an effective marriage would be a strong foundation of friendship first. And in the process of courtship, we ought to experiece a wisdom- guided romance instead of heart- guided romance.
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Just Friends
We enjoy each others company but for the most part, we avoid it.
We pretend there is nothing there.We're just friends.
Every time we meet, it's awkward at first.
We check our guard and put up the walls.We're just friends that's all.
We call each other on the phone,and always have a good excuse for doing so.
Do friends need an excuse?You remind me that "We must be careful","We can't go there", you say.
The rules have been set,and we live by them.
We sit and talk for hours,two sets of blue eyes interlockedand neither turns away.
I hang on your every word.Your simple presence in a room,gives my life a purpose.
Add your voice and a smile,and I melt away.
But we're just friends, right?Why do I feel it's more?
Are we in self-inflicted denial?Our past hurts have made us so afraid,We'd rather be lonely than to take that chance again.
I wish I could tell you how I really feel inside.
That I'd be willing to take that chanceTo be more than just your friend.
I know you sense this, as I do,but it's easier to pretend.
Saying it would make it realand you'd run away and hide from me.
So I'll try and keep the flood gates closedand be content that you let me be,Just your friend.
posted by The voice within @
5:20 AM
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Wednesday, December 07, 2005
Wonders of Heaven
I feel that I don't have the time to really relax. I've been so stressed up this few days because term test is approaching in a weeks time. Hmm, I thought school just started not long ago? I have not even breathe yet. Its my last year and I want to end it well. Have not been updating my blog for quite some time too and of course, I don't think I'll be able to remember whatever I've done till this day. I'll just see where my words lead me. One of my friend told me that everyone should be resposible for their actions no matter what the case. Somehow, this plain yet simple sentence strucked me. To be responsible is to tell God our plans and allow him to speak to us too...That's responsibility. Had a shopping spree with Jieying and Vanny in Little India. Went to Mustafa to look for stuffs. Yup, then we headed to the banana leaf restaurant to have our lunch. Really enjoyed the time together. I think the personality test really did help though it hit me when I saw the results. I am aware of my state all along but I did not want to face it. I thought it may perhaps get better but it did not. After the personality test, somehow I felt compelled to change or rather improve the state I was in. I decided to make decisions for myself and not let others overrule me. I'm beginning to view life more positively too. All thanks to God, and I know He's still moulding me into someone better. I guessed I've something to learn too form my experiences. Perhaps about loving my enermies and praying for them. I felt a asense of freedom being able to let go of all these troubling issues and let God take control of it.
Attended hip hop lessons with Ruth on Tuesday at Jitters. The training was really tough. Imagine we had to learn it in an hour. Nonetheless, I enjoyed it! It's a way of relaxing, Yeah? =) On the way out, saw peryn and friend and she invited us to join her church for dance lessons. I'm all so excited. =)
Went out with Ah Moon (Haha) and had a great time of catching up. So coincident, can't imagine I met him outside our church.
Nafa test is going to start in an hour's time. I'm so so tensed up now. I'm afraid I can't take it. Just for today, I'll just take william and evan's advice and just open my mouth when I running. I'll see if it works.
Upcoming events...
Friday:Meeting Chai Yun;
:Constance birthday party
Saturday:Cooking session with Sharon, Novy, Chai Huat, Harfizah and Nurul
:Going to town with Yenru
:Secondary School gathering later at night
Sunday:Going for daryl's birthday party
Monday:Christmas shopping!!!
posted by The voice within @
9:04 PM
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