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Friday, March 31, 2006
Lord reign in me
I can't control everything in life with my own abilities. I need to recognise this fact. And perhaps, God wants me to realise that I've held on to some things which has taken the rightful place of Him. He's telling me to let them go because He's all I ever need.
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6:49 PM
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Friday, March 24, 2006
A day that is treasured
Hey! That's Esther. So cute right? She just doesn't want to take a picture of herself. We were kind of mad cos we went to different corners and started posing. A wonderful friend indeed and YES, a friend I don't wanna lose. A friend that will always be close to my heart. Yenru and Felicia kept hiding from the camera, so its always left with the two of us.
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8:09 AM
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Thursday, March 23, 2006
The smile on my face will stay forever
Working in HSBC this time round is a recomfirmation that I'm not called for office job. I just don't like the feeling of being at your own desk and doing the tasks assigned. All we need to do is to complete the tasks given in the shortest time possible. And to me, its madness. I was assigned to do some QC administrative work, which included folding 6600 letters and slotting all of these into the envelopes. It's really driving me nuts because the whole day, I'll just be at my desk doing this. I was supposed to complete it yesterday, but even till today, I have 2000 odd more to finish. It's boring la. Now I know the consequences of slacking on the 1st day of work. Work will just pile up the next day. Thank God Yenru and the guy from the other department came to help me. Although the work was sian, I enjoyed myself too. We were supposed to do OT today. So ya, we did. However, instead of working through the OT period, we spent the time talking. That's so cool right? Simply talking and crapping...time passed so quickly...furthermore get paid 1.5 times more. And of course, as usual, I would go to the pantry to find things to drink...so I was practically wasting my time effectively. I told my colleagues that perhaps they should employ a postman to do this type of job instead of asking people like us to do. Now, it seems that I'm called a postwoman...mann...just for the moment. I think the location of my job has allowed me to go to work with my dad and I'm really grateful for that. I think my dad is a great dad and I'm beginning to appreciate every little bit of him. I sensed too that I'm starting to understand him better in a fresh new way.
I've been thinking of one of my secondary school friend lately. She's called esther. We used to hang out together after school together with yvonne. Yes, we were very closed. But somehow along the way, when we enter into different polytechnics, our friendship drifted apart. It was only yesterday that we started messaging each other again. I'm overjoyed. God really knows my needs. On my way home today, I bumped into her in Bedok and we had a great 3 minutes talk. A 3 minutes talk that means so much to me. Following, we decided that we should meet up...oh yeah! So it will be...tomorrow...gonna ask yenru and barthelomew along too. I wanted to take a day off tomorrow as I was not feeling too well just now but I guess I'll just go because I'm so excited to meet my friends after work.
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6:58 AM
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Sunday, March 19, 2006
3 Answered prayers
I thanked God that during my trying moments upon waiting on the Lord, He has surrounded me with friends who has indeed been an encouragement to me. The waiting was a great challenge to me...in fact a blow...and i felt I could not take it anymore. But I came to terms with myself just afew days back that even if I don't get the job, He has a better job for me. It is through waiting that I find strength in Him. The two weeks of waiting seemed like eternity for me. But when I began to focus on God instead of my issue, I could see His hands at work. An hour ago, my supervisor called and asked me to start work next week. I could not imagine it for once...it caught me by surprise. Am really overjoyed. Thank you Lord.
I attended the YA retreat on Saturday. The message came through to me directly- so personal. I felt I needed a touch from the Lord. At the same time, I'm really thankful for Ruth who has encouraged me to go for the retreat and I'm glad I did. God is able to heal, deliver and restore our brokeness, our hurts and our past. God never fails us! Now, I'm able to face up to reality and not allow my past to affect my future.
I'm thankful for the part- time job at HSBC. Although I don't really fancy office work, at least I get to have a feel of stepping into the office all alone, and adapting myself to the working environment. And I'm thankful for the people I've met.
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7:50 AM
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Wednesday, March 15, 2006
Come on over baby
So sweet of Shuyi. She did this for me. Really glad that I've known this friend of mine cos she knows almost all my deepest secrets and even the ugly sides of me. WowWow! I don't know how we became real good friends but somehow we were just able to connect. =) Accompanied her to re- cut her hair cos she was not satisfied with her hair condition...
Sharon offered me a job. I'll be starting work in HSBC tomorrow. It's gonna be a temporary job...yes, its better than not having a job ya??=) And I'll be doing those postage kind of thing.
Talked to barthelomew today on the phone. It's been like what? Ages since we last talked. And mann, he still have this thinking that I'm a blur queen but more matured now. Oh well, but chatting with him was fun because we could simply catch up on where we have left on.
I hope that I can have a beautiful dream tonight and wake up feeling all refreshed.
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6:51 AM
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Saturday, March 11, 2006
From the bottom of my heart
Dinner and Dance yesterday at Crown Prince Hotel was quite a memorable one because I guessed it would be one of the very last times we would be together as a class. It feels just great to be with the company of friends. Everyone's gonna part and go their separate ways. Well, that's life. For some of my friends, they would be going overseas to pursue a degree, for some, to study in a local university and for some, to start working.
Will upload the rest of the pics soon=)
I'm happy cos I did temporary curl for just $15 and the effect really lasted the whole night. Felt a waste if i had to wash my hair, cos washing my hair would mean that it would resume back to my normal hair again. But oh well, I couldn't stand it any longer and decided that I should just practice good personal hygiene. After D & D, we headed down to Rouge for clubbing together with Roy's gang and Pamela's gang. The music was nice. It's those kind of pop music that I would appreciate.
At last, I'm proud to say that I'm now a graduate. Yeah! Received my final semester results yesterday, afew hours before dinner and dance. I felt I could have done better, or rather gotten myself a better grade. Who don't want to strive higher right? But perhaps, they should have moderated the marks cos the papers were difficult.
Nutrition in Disease: C+
Food Service Management: B
Major project: C
Comm Skills 4: B
*********************DaNcInG iN tHe RaIn********************
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7:24 AM
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Friday, March 10, 2006
It's every little thing you do
I wish I could turn back the time and let you know I will never let you go. I wonder why I could not accept you. So let's part my dear. It's the bond between us that only we can understand and in which the world will never comprehend. It's hard, but what do you feel anyway? Go for what your heart seeks because the door that was once locked can never be open again...Never. Don't treat me too good for I will perceive you like a fool. I appreciate all your sweet little thoughts because you make me feel special and loved. I will leave you in your insolated cabin and I will go back to where I had originated from. And if one day, we pass each other again, I promised I would tell you that I will always be glad being with you. Stupidity got the hold of me in the past. Affected by the negative comments people had about you, I quietly accepted it. But deep within, I know...its the CHEMISTRY that keeps it alive.
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9:45 AM
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Monday, March 06, 2006
Random
Waited the whole of today for a call but to no avail. Its the waiting that's difficult. Now if given a choice, I would rather have a direct answer, be it a YES or a NO straight to my face. Tough journey! Perhaps God wants me to put my trust in Him and that if its really His will, He will grant me this desire of my heart. But yeah, I'm starting to doubt myself and sometimes to the extent of doubting God. At times I wonder if God would ever even bother.
Headed down to meet Wan Jun at Bedok Interchange. Went to her house because I needed a dress for dinner and dance. And yes, she's the perfect person to go to for girly stuffs like dresses cos she really has great taste. Tried on four dresses and decided that I'll borrow two of her black dresses. Haha, and we exchanged clothes with each other. I gave her a skirt which I couldn't wear and she gave me a jacket.
Oh ya, Bedok do have lots of perverts so be ultra careful when you are there. Tomorrow will be a day of waiting again...perhaps while I'm waiting, I can also think of what I'm going to do with my hair for Friday.
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7:24 AM
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Portrait of a lady
What becomes a lady most?
It's about class and about substance, things that help to anchor the polish and gleam of style. It's about celebrating the values and mindset required to be a real lady. -Elizabeth Creagh-
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2:23 AM
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Sunday, March 05, 2006
All for you
The mentoring session today at Aunty Muifong place was really interesting. We (Aunty Muifong, Jean, Ting, Ruth and I) got to paint our own easter eggs in really nice colours. Well, my first end product was not at all nice...and I was actually quite sad...haha. But well, I got a chance to do the second one. At least it was much better. I'm really thankful for such a great group of friends for whom we can hold one another accountable. And it is really in this group that I've really benefitted alot. Its a time that I could really let my hairs down and be really transparent for who I really am. Not saying that I'm always putting a false front, but rather, this is a time where I could share my struggles in life and still not feel embarrass about it. We are still human beings afterall. And its because there are people who care, so that's why I wouldn't mind sharing. What amazed me most is the work that God has done in each of our lives everytime we meet as a group. It is through times like this that makes me marvel at God's unconditional love for us. Praying for one another was also something good because it allows us to also consider others and not to be so inward- looking. How great it would be if we could just hold one another accountable for the rest of our lives, and to really uphold one another in good and bad times.
Am definitely looking forward to the cooking sessions with you people...make it a deal=)
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6:02 AM
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Thursday, March 02, 2006
Perfect identity
Big Momma's house 2 was really worth the $8. I never felt so happy watching a movie show until I watched this. Martin Lawrence was like damm cool, even though he posed like a fat woman in the show. He's so so 'sexy'...so eye- catching. Had a great time catching up with Jun just now...I have been going out almost everyday even though I don't have the money. Well, I hate staying at home...it will just bored me to death. I'll just be on my bed all day long and keep on day dreaming...end result...Purposeless.
What tires me most was the endless interviews I had to attend at Ritz Carlton. They gave me another post. I've gone through 5 interviews with them already and if everything goes well during the 6th interview next week, I would be able to work soon. Well, that's really scary...cos I've been praying...and somehow I'll be very sad if I won't be able to get through the last round because lots of effort has been put in it...I did research on lots of stuffs...but I also need to bravely accept the fact if I'm not chosen. This is really a troubling issue and I'll just continue to entrust this whole issue to the one up there.
The 3 pieces of sushi has caused me to have this horrible cough...its really so irritating that I wanna use a sandpaper to sooth my throat. Arrhh!!!!!!
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6:51 AM
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Wednesday, March 01, 2006
Say a little prayer
Dear Lord,
Help me to trust in you when my future seems uncertain.
Help me to realise that my plans are not your plans, and my ways are not your ways.
Help me to know that you are the real boss and that in you I lack nothing.
Help me to rest in your unfailing love and continue to place my hopes on you alone.
Help me to find peace in you rather than the world could ever give.
Help me to understand that its not about me but its about you.
Grant me Lord the courage to accept the things I cannot change.
Grant me Lord the strength to accept reality.
It's you Lord that holds the bigger picture.
As I lay my request and my plea, if its your will Lord, let it be done.
Thank you Jesus!
Amen
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6:06 AM
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