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Wednesday, November 30, 2005
Madness at home
I was so angry with my mum yesterday that I shouted and vented my anger at her. You know how unreasonable mothers can be right? I did not apologised cos I know from the beginning that I 'm not at all in the wrong. Even my father felt that my statement did not mean anything, yet my mum took it so seriously. I did not say a single word to her after that. Although things are back to normal now due to the fact that both of us treated as if nothing actually happened, I know that deep within, she demands an apology from me.
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2:06 AM
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A glimpse of...
I accompanied my dietician to the ward today and the few minutes of getting a closer look at one of the patient has indeed left a deep inpact in my life. This Indonesian lady is only 23 years old, and she had her large intestines removed. This means that she can't clear her bowels the same way normal people do. I saw it with my own eyes how the nurse actually inserted a tube into the ileum through a process known as ileumnology to remove her faeces. In addition, she's on total parenteral nutrition and is in a semi- conscious state. Seeing this thing happening to her makes me want to do a kind deed or say an enouraging word to her. However, what I could do was to see her suffering this torment and agony all by herself. It hurts me to see people suffering, especially where its not only the physical struggle they are facing, but also the mental, emotional and spiritual struggles. I guessed these people (patients) are the ones who deserves respect, having to fight the war and win the battle in order to live.
'More love, more power, more of You in my life'
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1:40 AM
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Friday, November 18, 2005
Seize The Day
Wasting my time away in the school library. My friends have all gone home and here I am, killing time while waiting for someone. Life's been great so far. School's so enjoyable cos my friends are just so lovely. Wonderful bunch of people. Yeah! I just hate those bitchy girls sitted behind me during lecture just now. They asked us to shut up while they themselves were laughing away. And during FSM lecture, we were there chatting and laughing despite people around us being darn serious and jotting down everything that the lecturer said. San told me a joke for the day. She said that people who are short are cleverer because their butts are nearer to their brain. So so lame but I really enjoyed this joke. And there we were, together with ly and sharon, teasing one another, talking about one another's boyfriend or admirer and criticising people. Quizzes up next week and I've no idea how is it going to be like. I feel that I'm more stupid after the long break. I just couldn't understand the FSM lecture at all. Its so dry and boring, and its so business- based. My brain just can't adapt so fast to something new, really. Lord, increase the brain cells in my brain please!!! I've got to go. =)
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1:35 AM
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Thursday, November 10, 2005
Olden days
My, it's only the first week of school and the students are all loaded with lots of assignments, projects. The lecturers and tutors simply push everything to us, thinking that we are not humans but robots. I'm not too sure how I am going to survive this semester. I can't understand what the ND lecturer who is an indian is talking about. There's just too much of an indian essence. Told myself that I must pay more attention during Pastor Sunil's sermon and get the hang out of it. I think I ought to have a change in my study pattern. I want to study smart drom now on rather than study hard. Apart from studies, life has been great so far. Enjoyed the lunch we had just now with my khakis, crapping and laughing at one another. There's what makes school even more fun and relaxing. There's so much stories so tell, so much things to expose. And hey, I've a new job...to be a secret detective and draw information from sharon and jeffery. =)
Friendship do fade after a certain timeframe due to the fact that each one has their own dreams to pursue in life. Was just chatting with aloysius over msn, and we were there talking bout how close we were in secondary school, sharing secrets with each other, and now both of us admit that we just couldn't find time to maintain this friendship. Well, but is better, really, after bumping into him inTP almost for the past consecutive 2 days. Lots of effort must be put in for both parties to sustain every friendship.
Met up with Yenru after school on Tuesday. Ha, internationally recoginsed...and people whose name starts with A is indeed a curse so to speak. I hope I won't have to dwell on this manmade curse anymore. For all I know, God knows.
Yes, tomorrow's lesson starts at 1pm which means I can sleep like a PIG. Sleeping is my life. zzz!
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12:16 AM
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Monday, November 07, 2005
So blessed
I'm really grateful for everyone who celebrated my 20th birthday with me. Those warmed messages and well wishes, together with big and small surprises have indeed allowed me to feel like a 20 years old princess. Thanks Jun for the necklace; Sharon, Liying, Yin Xuan and San for the shirt, diary and bag. I promised that I will pen down my thoughts in the mickey mouse diary. And thanks for spending my birthday with me over dinner. The YA gave me a blasting surprise in which Ying Ci and Kenneth asked everyone in the hall to sing a birthday song to me, and Yes, the bag, I love the bag! My family brought me to Jack's place for dinner. I'm beginning to appreciate them more and more, and I'm thankful at how God works. His plans are perfect.
Sis gave me a borders' voucher, while my sweet little brother of mine gave me a handphone accessory and a keychain. Aunty Catherine bought me another bag. =) Thanks Yenru, Jeff, Yiming and Aini.
After church, Ruth and I met up with Aunty Muifong over lunch. When it was Ruth's birthday, we met up with Aunty Muifong too. Yesterday was my turn. Well, I guessed God wants to speak to us during our big day. I'm glad and thankful that despite what we are facing, our friendship is still growing strong. You will be my forever friend, Ruth!=)
Today was the last day of the intervention programme. Finally mind at ease. Aini and I had a great time laughing at people all the time. Most of the time we were there talking about the chi ko bei who kept looking at us as if he did not see a girl in his life at all. I really felt like gorging out his eyes. Ha, our conversation was extremely violent, but who cares? And that irritating chi ko Bei kept walking around and smiling at everyone he sees. Damm disgusting. Went back to school to meet up with my Apel class. Was voted to be the class rep. I'm not too sure what I'm gonna do, but I'll just do a good job and hope that everyone will just have a chance to enjoy one another's company before we graduate and lead our own lifes again.
The horrible lecture is going to start in less than 24 hours time. Kiasu and kiasi me will bring a potable tape recorder to school to tape my lecture. It does helps alot cos I'm a slow learner. So most of the time, I won't be able to understand what the lecturer is talking about. To me, its all crap and more craps. It's only when I get home and start revising that I find values and meanings in those craps. Everyone's talking about what they wish to do after they graduate. I'm confused myself. I love my course but on the otherhand, there's no university in Singapore that offer my course or something that is somehow related. Don't tell me this is a dead end cos nothing else interest me already.
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6:31 AM
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Friday, November 04, 2005
Laughing stock
Can't stop laughing at Chee Keong's weird nonsence. He asked me stupid stuff like do you like to fly, and if I prefer to sit in a single or double decker bus. He said that he's still a slacker in school despite getting pretty good results. And all throughout the conversation, we were simply justifying ourselves and comparing with each other. LoL! I did not know how it started back then in secondary 1. All I could remember was the very first Home Econs lesson that brought us together. Both just as innocent. I guessed we started to talk much more when we move on to our poly life. I was very inspired by how he decided to lead a simpler life. You amazed me once more with your stupidity=)
Met Jun on Thursday. Went to Sakae Sushi to have lunch, and we kept looking at the pretty babe infront of us. As we were doing our shopping, these 2 guys approached us and explained to us regarding some bank stuff. They were damm pissed when Jun asked how old they were. Afew minutes later, I asked them if they have any education. Gosh, it got the hell out of them, and Hao lian to us that they were from NTU. Ha! They really made our day by telling us jokes and suaning one another. Thx Jun for the birthday present=)
I've not been doing my Quiet Time for quite sometime. Perhaps I 've been busy these few days. But hey, busyness should not be the excuse right? But I don't have the mood to do. I've just checked my timetable for next semester. Its pretty much the same as previous semester...extremely PACKED. And the worst thing is that I'm having my ND module on Monday, which means that I need to study real hard cos I will be the first person to experience all the spot quizzes and tests. Arrhh. Headache.
Intervention today in Mount Alvernia was quite an experience. It's the first time I'm working in the hospital so I was pretty excited just now. I got a chance to see how the hospital canteen runs during their lunch hour. Was kind of taken aback by what Ms Lee commented on our work progress...It's below her expectation. However, her harsh words woke me up. She told us that we must value add to our work because in Singapore, everyone is so competitive. And in order for us to stay in the workforce, we must go the extra mile to be different, yet unique and excel all the way. Seriously speaking, we won't be practicing the things we study in school when we move on to the working world. Everything will be just different, not what we expect it to be. We ought to depend on ourself, yes ourself to climb up the corporate ladder. (Ya, not forgetting that I must also depend on God who is the main source).
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1:30 AM
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