Blog Entry
Saturday, December 17, 2005
Believing in reality as it seems
On the 15th of December, I blogged my 30th post. The content was simply out of the norm. It took me lots of courage to pen it down. 'A whole load of feelings' would exactly be a fine description of the context. Hey, but why did I delete my entry the next morning? I myself can't answer. Perhaps its so hard to even type the simplest thing in the blog because people will know what's happening the minute they read it. That's the danger of it all.
But for now, here it goes...my 30th post. I was very encouraged by what Doctor Ed Pousson preached about. It kept me thinking about how we should cultivate spiritual discipline as it is beneficial to us. Solitude and fasting are effective ways to get closer to the Father. And together with this comes a spirit- filled life. I also learnt that faith in God requires no prove because sometimes we need to live without evidence.
I studied quite abit just now. Somehow I just can't concentrate. =( Oh Lord, fill me with your everlasting love.
I have been reading Boy meets Girl. I'm beginning to appreciate the beauty of making rightful decisions. Oh, Hey, God is a God of Romance. The first few chapters have already changed my perspective about relationship. I used to think that God is a boring God. How can He be a God of Romance? Now I know...God is a one cool God. God has a plan for every single individuals, and I guessed that the bottomline to an effective marriage would be a strong foundation of friendship first. And in the process of courtship, we ought to experiece a wisdom- guided romance instead of heart- guided romance.
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Just Friends
We enjoy each others company but for the most part, we avoid it.
We pretend there is nothing there.We're just friends.
Every time we meet, it's awkward at first.
We check our guard and put up the walls.We're just friends that's all.
We call each other on the phone,and always have a good excuse for doing so.
Do friends need an excuse?You remind me that "We must be careful","We can't go there", you say.
The rules have been set,and we live by them.
We sit and talk for hours,two sets of blue eyes interlockedand neither turns away.
I hang on your every word.Your simple presence in a room,gives my life a purpose.
Add your voice and a smile,and I melt away.
But we're just friends, right?Why do I feel it's more?
Are we in self-inflicted denial?Our past hurts have made us so afraid,We'd rather be lonely than to take that chance again.
I wish I could tell you how I really feel inside.
That I'd be willing to take that chanceTo be more than just your friend.
I know you sense this, as I do,but it's easier to pretend.
Saying it would make it realand you'd run away and hide from me.
So I'll try and keep the flood gates closedand be content that you let me be,Just your friend.
posted by The voice within @
5:20 AM
2 comments
*BIG HUG* :) Sometimes, we just need to blog it out to make ourselves feel better ya? I do that all the time! Go read Dating with Pure Passion after u are done with Boy meets Girl! It's with Ruth now I think.. that's a great book too! I'm re-reading it again!
hello eve...*big hug* too. I'm really grateful to have you as my friend, and let us all learn together in this journey of life that God has given us. Looking forward to more prayers with u :)
All the best for you term tests!