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Tuesday, August 29, 2006
Sunny days are but a joy
Sunday's message on Missions really spoke deep into my heart...I felt God was again affirming me in the area of service to Him. How can it be? Me going on missions? In the past, when it comes to evangelism, I would be one of the last few who would stand up and respond...I was that resistant towards missions. I'm really thankful for the 40 days of prayer cos God really did breathe His living words in me, leading me to pray for East Timor. Somehow, I felt the burden to care and love the Timonese. And then, there was the message by Sister Lai Kheng where she challenges us to bless others since we are so blessed in Singapore. As the short video was screened, I teared just as I saw many others around me wiping away their tears of love, some others holding back their tears, while some did not cry but whispered to themselves saying...'aiyo, so poor thing!' Compassionate people aren't they? =) I think God gives us emotions and feelings for a purpose. To feel for the poor, the sick and needy is indeed a gift from the Lord.
"People need the Lord, People need the Lord
At the end of a broken dream
He's the open door
People need the Lord, People need the Lord
When will we realise
That we must give our lives
For people need the Lord"
Jiawen's birthday party was really another blast! Many people attended. Well, cos I was late...(Not as usual ok, Sharon), there was barely any food left. I enjoyed myself cos we got to bitch around again in our groups...oops. Bitching once in a while is healthy cos it relaxes the mind. It helps us to unwind after a stressful day.
And yes, I enjoyed 'Ruth's Obsession week'. The week where we met up quite a number of times...first it was at our mentor's house, then it was the time with Bess at Fish & Co , her birthday party at her house and a birthday celebration in church. I'm starting to miss Ruth...feel so weird not seeing her on Sundays.
Oh, and there was the night out with Wanjun. Walking from Cityhall to Boat Quay was super fun, though our legs were hurting. Going out with this girl always makes my day cos she can really make me laugh and just be myself.
I'm thankful that Macy and I got a chance to meet for lunch since our workplace are so near from each other. Her zest for God is super contagious.
I'm thankful too that Alex and I do still keep in contact after all these years. I missed those crazy years in secondary school doing stupid stuffs together...like getting the same bag, avoiding each other in school but talk to each other on the phone at night, giving him a time that he can call or else I won't pick up the phone, playing pranks on people, how we got caught by the discipline mistress...those are the days of long ago.
Interviews after interviews but to no avail. I was dissappointed with myself yesterday. It's tough not because you are not selected for the job but because you feel the job doesn't suit you and so you made up your mind to let it go. I felt like a complete loser after wanting to succeed and get through the interview. I felt that I was wasting my time and effort preparing. I was down. And today as I was doing my QT, God told me that the things that he brought me through will not be put to waste. I see nothing but He sees something. He sees the bigger picture, He knows what's best for my life. If there's a God who loves me that much, that unconditional, why should I continue to lament? Shouldn't I rejoice in Him? Yes I should.
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6:14 AM
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Saturday, August 12, 2006
Falling over in love with you again
The eduacation system is getting from bad to worse nowadays. Kids in Primary 1 can already feel the stress in schools...what more about people who are taking their PSLE, 'O' Levels, 'A' Levels and what not? It's really madness. A good example would be what happened today. My brother was told that he would be having an interview with a secondary school. So for the whole of yesterday night, my sis and I actually prepared him for the interview skills, like reminding him of being polite to the interviewers, to be himself and to create a good and lasting impression. To add, we also taught him how to answer some common questions like 'Tell me about yourself' and 'What are your strengths and weaknesses'. But the reality was that there was no interview at all in the end. He was put to two tests, the practical test where he had to showcase his basketball skills and another, a written test to see if he's good in his academic performance. I can't understand why Singaporeans need to impose stress on themselves. Isn't life itself stressful enough? People in other countries are simply slacking from day to day, and here we are, striving to top the class or to climb up the corporate ladder. Well, perhaps I'm not the sort of person who is ambitious. I feel I need the space to breathe and do the things that I enjoy doing.
I'm enjoying my new job in a bank. The people there are a whole lot of nice people. For now that will be it even though I'm still in search of a full time job. I told myself never to job-hop again but it's really not my fault cos nowadays, most companies provide contract jobs. Oh yes, and today I woke up early to do my hair. The hair stylist told me that doing of curls would only take 2 hours but in the end, my butt was stucked to that chair for 5 solid hours. Stomach was making noise, bladder was bursting and time was running out. I was late for the New Creation Church's service. Thank God I managed to reach on time. The worship and the sermon were really ministering. The pastor said something like 'God doesn't look at your ability, God looks at your availability'. Indeed this sentence is so true. We tend to see ourselves as being inadequate for service to others at times, but what God wants is simply two hands and one heart, saying YES to the place or the people or even the ministry that He wants us to reach out to. Wherever God puts you, He has chosen you to be the voice of influence in that marketplace.
Following, Jean, Aaron and I went to catch the fireworks. It was really fun cutting people's path just to get a closer view at the fireworks. It was indeed a night of great wonders. Looking up at the skies when the fireworks were displayed has once again allowed me to marvel at God's wonderful creation. Awesome fireworks!
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9:45 AM
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Sunday, August 06, 2006
My inspiration
I miss this friend of mine to bits. Yes you, Atthakorn Sae Khu (Bon)
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Friday, August 04, 2006
For such a time like this
San's 21st birthday party was indeed a blast. What's interesting was that her party was held at her church friend's place. And when I reached there, my first reaction was 'WOW!' Guess what? The house is super huge. A 5 storey house, with 2 cute dogs, 1 cat, a fish pond, a balcony, where the foods were served and this cosy room where we could just rest and relax. The house is super neat and tidy too. That itself created the setting for a good birthday party. Secondly, the foods were heavenly. Lots and lots of barbecued food just kept coming to our table. Really felt bad that we always got served rather than to serve. =) The beef was so well marinated that I had a craving again the minute I reached home. Thirdly, the birthday party was perfect because of the people that were there. Yes, it's really times like this that makes our bond grow stronger. It was also a good time getting to know San's church friends. Really nice and warm people who will just make you feel comfortable. What impacted me most of all was the time spent together at the cosy room I was talking about earlier. We sat down in a circle and went round sharing all the good things about San. I truely thank God for this siter-in-christ who stood by me all these while especially during poly days. Her words of encouragement and her undying passion for God do put me to shame at times. But then, I want to emulate her examples and I do want to grow more in love with the Lord. I guessed God spoke to me again and again, even on that day to live and to leave a godly legacy. Well, in the sense to impact the lives of others now for eternity. The question is 'What do you want people to remember you for when you leave this earth?' Perhaps everything starts now. It's in the way you speak and react that will impact others. People are observing and we as christians should not fail the test.
I'm gonna miss people like Jacelyn, for which both of us had so much of fun and laughter at Expressions. At how we always got scolded for not listening to instructions, at how we rebel against some people. And for Jason...I'm gonna miss his teasing and his lameness and all of his sound advise.
And yes, I quitted my job immediately yesterday. I don't know if I should be happy about it or start blaming myself for being too rash about it. There's really lots of factors that made me want to quit in the first place but I told myself not to give up too easily. But somehow, it reached a point where I could not take it anymore and decided that the best solution was for me to leave. It came as a big shock to my colleagues cos they knew how enthusiastic I was in looking forward to the opening of the kilosuite. I really thank God cos the minute I tendered my resignation, almost instantly, I received a call from my aunt, asking me if I could help up at her office. I agreed cos the pay is good, the environment is good and the best thing is that it's a monday to friday kind of job. But hey, I would still want to work in the nutrition field, I would still want to get a degree but I don't know when will be the time. Just got to continue praying and sense the leading of the Holy Spirit.
Met up with Jean to do threading at Little India. I'm in love with the place. I'm amazed at how a thread could shape our eyebrows. From now on, I'll just go there for my threading session. It's not at all painful as compared to plucking of eyebrows.
Lakehouse was not that nice after all. The storyline was kind of complicated. It about two person living in the past and the present, and how they met eventually. When my friends told me that lakehouse was nice, I pictured it as an extremely remantic movie that will just make you tear throughout the whole session.
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